Divine Design....Fear or Love

[Tammy Lynn Reilly Davis]

Boy, when a decision is made to pursue something, the Universe has no problem assisting. However, before I proceed, I was unable to post anything yesterday. Karmic intervention? Who knows &; everything certainly does happen for good reason. With that said, my head is better; although, my body is remains in knots. So, where was I. Oh yes, drama. Lots of drama &; when I allow myself to get so wrapped up in it...not good. My learning through all of this is how to be in a relationship when 2 people have 'crap' going on. I am so very good at dropping all my stuff to listen and be there for him, and not so good at bringing it back to me which is what yesterday was all about. We've declared a very big game in life. Our experiences, when we look at them, say it's not possible to have this fantastic life. Some walks of life say when you tell God what you want, the devil shows up to tempt you with other things that will keep you from getting what you want. (this is my interpretation of what I've heard). This is a very similar belief to how I experience the Divine although, I don't equate it to the devil, I simply see it as me (you) being handed several options &; I (you) get to choose which path to walk. Throughout my life, there have been things I want (in my head) &; then there are things I waannnt (a true gut experience); very distinct feelings. Currently, I'm feeling drawn to Santa Fé &; aromatherapy as well as be with my partner. Interestingly enough, I've never had all 3 at the same time. In fact, the aromatherapy has been a wall I've been up against for 21 years. Just this morning, I discovered some very self-defeating beliefs that have perpetuated this wall for so many years &; just like with the relationship & creating this really great life, I must show up! Show up, now! Yesterday I did just that. I made even more requests. I voiced my fears and let him know what I need from him. I need him to take part in this with me. I need him to help me pull this cart. I DO NOT want to do it alone. This is a role I've played for so many years, and I'm no longer interested in being a 'party of one'. If I can do that for my relationship, &; I can do that to get myself set up in Santa Fé, why am I not doing that for my business? Wow! Today is the day. Today is the day I start asking for what I need and being like a dog on a pant leg about it. I know what's possible when 'we' show up. I've experienced it first hand. I just need to remember my commitment. My commitment to love, not fear. That's not to say I won't experience fear. I am now. The difference is what I do in the face of the fear. Not taking action is succumbing to the fear. Taking action in spite of the fear is what I'm committed to and that is love. Have a great day!